Early one morning I awoke to the smell of soft, warming eggs filling the house mingling with the scent of fresh bubbling bacon from the family swine of the farmhouse. It was a usual summer morning as I went out to take my usual rounds about the perimeter of the family ranch. My family lived in the countryside...not exactly where but I knew it was in middle america, for my mother always told me thats what they called it. I wasn't educated, no where close, I was always left out from the rest of the family. They would go on trips, they would go to the river, and sometimes even be gone for days and days. Of course I was different, I couldn't talk as well as them and the fine crisp of the word knowledge was never tipped on my head. Occasionally they would say I was very smart inside, but I knew they just said it to be nice. My life was a nice one...long, peaceful, filled with laughter and games...anything to stimulate me from physical activities to even sitting on the sofa watching the box - having hardly an education I never truly will know what it is, but its there, and nice. The family would take me to school sometimes for me to feel special...wanted, loved. I didn't need anything fancy, just a loving family and cozy nook to stay in for shelter, my home in other words. Mom was the best, she knew where to get me the best food, and tried to teach me things from colors to even talking to me with words in slow so I could understand, of course I never could as I look to it this day. Years passed as my family of brothers left the house, leaving me behind with Mom- Dad never influenced me in life and never thought I was a part of his family...the bastard didn't even wish me a happy birthday as I come to try and understand, its not my fault my mind can't shape things very well, i'm not smart like my brothers...I'm just there, as he says.
As I walked down the stairs, older now with my mis-shapen limbs (compared to my family), I'm greeted at the bottom by my loving Mom whose always there to show me the way. I was sat down and given a plate of mashed eggs, oatmeal and bacon bits, the few things I can eat out of the household, everything else was hard for me to consume. I let out a cry of worry as I sat on the old recliner in the family room with food in reach, a pile of urine and feces already staining myself and on which it remained. Mom said it was alright and immediately helped me over. The doctor said because of how I was I was destined to pass on. Of all the things I understood, even with my low mentality, that each of us pass on...good or bad, to what they call a better place. I was still young, but something was wrong with me inside, they never knew what it was. Because I was special my brothers visited me that night as I lay in my own crib of shelter, batting at them and giving my inhuman moans and syllables. They couldn't understand me, never could, but they knew what I meant, they always have. They held me by my loose, odd-in-comparison shaped limb and talked to me like I was one of them...not special nor different...not dumb nor retarded, but as a actual person like them. I finally close my eyes as Mom says i'm alright, and its better I go. I will always be in their memories.

To this day my Urn rests on their mantle, the plaque saying...




...Max, a loving brother, and a wonderful Dog.


Thank you, my best friends-

When you wonder how is it you fall in love with such a beautiful, amazing person, and you have to thank life for pushing you in the right direction.


I love you Naomi, everyday I look forward to chat with you, call, or see your latest update. You keep me going through life and make everyday a jewel, almost as precious as your beautiful soft face.

Toddlers and sewing machines DO NOT MIX- Especially when the balloon-wolf is operating it.




Lesson learned today

This dog likes Balloons. by *AeroSocks on deviantART


I can haz red?

Where have you been all my life?



I love you, HBO~

...Your being attacked by hundreds of little insects, and you can feel it? Had a dream there was a party at my grandmas house in the backyard, me falling asleep outside. Woke up to see the place a mess, people gone...yet some people laying on the floor half eaten or gored up as millions of mosquitos flew around, biting and nipping at me also. Went in the house and it wasn't even safe as windows were boarded, but they got in as you walked in and there were cops and people all on the floor in pieces from the little creeps.


This doesn't help my small phobia of insects

And laptop freaked out and made me click a image marked WARNING. Didn't think it could be that bad, but it was a babyfur image of a dino or something crapping itself all over.





my eyes literally watered and stung, thats how fail it was.








thought I'd let ya'll know :|

( Click here to see photos of body update! )


Just doing a body update with photos for those fitness friends of mine/curious friends to see. People always see me with a jacket or such on, and know i'm a thin guy...so when I tell them how much I work out and what I get out of it they just don't believe me and want to see pictures XD well, here they are!

I would prevent myself from the accident that caused me to slpit my femur in half down to the knee, oh, and not jump off the back off a car like I once did...hurt my jaw and knees which fucked them up.

Woke up this morning with a nightmare, on a ghost terrorizing me in my room...which its doing the same thing as what it did when I DID have a ghost, but more active/energetic. The dream came to a close as the ghost wrote on the wall "You might think we're upset with you, but we want to test on you" and then my alarm went off, jolted me awake, and scared the crap out of me.

It made me grind my teeth, because I woke up with my teeth feeling loose and all wonky...ugh

I still have a six pack. I mean, its something to be proud of, but looking at my lower chest it looks like the 8 pack wants to grow in...its close, but its still in the stages of looking like large center abdominal muscles. I really want an 8 pack, especially that suiting/costuming as one of my own characters would need it, but I guess my body only wants 6.



Damn it all, I guess for now i'll focus on my pecs and arms.

ok, so MSN says that there are surgies for "De-Barking"....as, make a dog unable to bark, whine, etc...thats horrible!

While it might be wise to say it would cut down on noise...but making a dog unable to speak? What if your family did a surgery to tear out YOUR voice? Or better yet, get told it was for the best of the family. What if you were to get robbed, and maybe even murdered, but not even know until its too late...because your family pooch could not bark to alert you?


Comments on it?

califur recieved all my money, and seems that I will be attending califur full steam ahead 8D yay! Just need to reserve the room, then get supplies for the table set!

for 3 months i'll be getting social security checks, seeing as Dad is retired and were under 17...but seeing that, once we hit 18 were on our own.

Father already said we can buy an IPad...i'm not too sure. I'll probably save it for college, a house, and if im able to, flights to and from texas ft worth...heres hope!

Just sent with the post-man the dealer information and payment for Califur for my table and assistant, AND sent in the last payment for my kigurumi of coco...YAY!


I think I sent too much money with the Kigurumi...lol oh well, if I did then its a nice donation, or Sapphire could send a red balloon packet with the kig XDD

Kiriban- Flying high by ~Dalamar-TLKfan on deviantART


This was a kiriban picture...TOTALLY made my day worth it.



that is all ;p

Alright, so this year oddly I have alot of furs who want to room with me at Califur xD Probably just to have a fun room lmao. SO, im plotting on having so far 3 main people to room with. We would all split the price (four people equals 64.50 dollars each) and then from there if MORE people want to room it would be evenly divided to make it fair for all of us.

The rooming is for friday and saturday night of the convention...sunday i'll have my stuff packed and we'll give up the room.

The room will be filled with dealer table stuff, and possibly a small helium tank for balloons (for the table and con-fun), along with clothing and suitcases so it'll be pretty packed.

Comment if interested, i'm only taking 3-4 people first then if a few more really want to then i'll look into expanding it, researching any extra fines, etc.

Hope to room with some great peeps!


The room is fursuiter friendly! Couples, as long as you don't make any messes, do anything big, and let us know about anything, we're fine with you too!

Its bad enough i'm sick, can't get in touch with my totem, but the ONE place where I can enjoy playing music in a school setting, and its horrible.



The other baritone player next to me is from a rival school, and he plays like shit! I gave him some tips on the notes and key changes, and he just shrugs it off. what an ass!

Giving a few days of rest from being sick, then going back to working out....damn i'm out of shape! XDDD


Going back to kicking my ass with my killer hour long pushup and weights reps. Hopefully it helps get me back in the right direction.. @3@